LIFEHOUSE - EVERYTHING

#SONG OF THE DAY#

Finally here once speak to me
I want to feel you, I need to hear you
You are the light that's leading me to the place
Where I find peace again
You are the strength that keeps me walking
You are the hope that keeps me trusting
You are the light to my soul
You are my purpose
You're everything and how can I stand here with you
And not be moved by it
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this
You calm the storms and you give me rest
You hold me in your hands
You won't let me fold
You still my heart when you take my breath away
Would you take me in take me deeper now
And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by it
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this
And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by it
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this
Cause you're all I want, you're all I need
You're everything.. everything
You're all I want
You're all I need
You're everything.. everything
You're all I want
You're all I need
You're everything.. everything
You're all I want
You're all I need
Everything.. everything
And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by it
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this
And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by it
Would you tell me how could it be any better any better than this
And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by it
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this

christmas 2011

Tuhan saya rindu ke gereja bersama papa di perayaan natal taon ini. Tapi papa saya terlalu sibuk . Saya merindukan papa ke gereja lagi . memuji namaMu, menyembahMu , mendengarkan FirmanMu . saya  rindu berdoa bersamanya . saya rindu DIA menjadi milikmu kembali .

terima kasih karena KAU masih menjaga papaku meski dia meninggalkanMu
terima kasih karena  KAU masih mencintainya meski dia tidak lagi mengutamakanMU di dalam hidupnya

Tuhan aku tau di dalamMu ada pengharapan ....

dan NATAL tahun ini adalah natal yang mengajarkanku untuk terus berharap kepadaMU untuk menjangkau mereka yang aku kasihi ....

dan meski papaku tidak lagi menuntunku dalam kerohanian tapi ENGKAU bapa yg selalu menuntunku sehingga aku terus berjalan dalam kebenaran ....

i love u Dad


i love YOU U JESUS

IBRANI 3

ibrani 3 : 6 "tetapi Kristus setia sbg Anak yg mengepalai rumahNYA dan rumahNYA ialah kita,jika kita sampai kpd akhirnya teguh berpegang pada kepercayaan dan pengharapan yg kita megahkan"

ibrani 3: 7 "sebab itu yang dikatakan Roh Kudus : PADA HARI INI , JIKA KAMU MENDENGAR SUARANYA JANGANLAH KERASKAN HATIMU SEPERTI DALAM KEGERAMAN



thanks for the word Jesus ;')

kupu-kupu dan serigala

saat itu aku tidak tahu dimana aku
aku hanya melihat ribuan kupu-kupu di sekitarku
mereka tidak peduli akan kehadiranku
tapi ada satu kupu-kupu yang mendekat padaku
dan berkata " hei kamu gadis kotor sedang apa kamu disini?mengapa kamu tidak membersihkan dulu dirimu sebelum bergabung dg kami"
lalu kupu-kupu berwarna hijau itu pergi berlalu ...
sejenak aku berpikir "Apakah aku harus bersih dn suci dulu supaya aku bisa seindah mereka?"
kemudian aku pergi meninggalkan kawanan kupu-kupu itu
di tengah perjalanan aku berjumpa serigala buas,aku berpikir aku akan mati
aku mencoba mundur sebelum serigala itu menerkamku...
tiba-tiba serigala itu berkata dengan suara parau nya "darimana kau gadis kotor?tidakkah kamu takut dengan buasnya makhluk-makhluk yang ada di dalam sini?"
aku mencoba tetap waspada dan menjawab pertanyaannya "aku dari taman kupu-kupu,tapi mereka tidak mau menerimaku karena aku kotor,aku takut tapi aku harus melalui jalan ini supaya aku bisa mencari dimana kehidupan yang bisa menerimaku"
kemudian serigala itu mendekat padaku,aku mencoba tetap waspada.tapi ternyata serigala itu memberi tanda padaku untuk berjalan mengikutinya...
aku mengikutinya tanpa ada perasaan takut,entah aku akan menjadi santapan makan malamnya atau aku akan di tawan dan dijadikan budak.tapi aku  merasa aku lebih baik mengikutinya.
kemudian dia membawaku ke sebuah rumah kecil yang terbuat dari akar2 pohon.aku masuk dan melihat sebuah keluarga kecil yang sederhan.keluarga serigala yang menunggu sang ayah untuk memberi makan malam pada mereka.aku hampir putus asa akan bisa hidup lebih lama lagi.

"ayah,mengapa kau membawa anak manusia?bukankah kita sudah bertobat dan tidak akan memangsa manusia lagi? kata anak serigala
"suamiku mengapa kau ingin kami berdosa lagi?"kata istrinya
"aku tidak akan persembahkan dia untuk menjadi makan malam kita,aku membawanya karena dia sama dengan kita.dia kotor tapi dia sudah menyerahkan hidupnya pada kebenaran,itu artinya dia bertobat.tapi dia tidak diterima mereka yang merasa bersih dan suci dan tanpa cacat."kata sang ayah


sejenak aku berpikir aku akan terbunuh,tapi tidak itu salah.serigala yang ditakuti ini membantuku untuk tidak merasa bahwa aku kotor,dia membantuku menemukan kebenara.tadinya aku pikir aku akan menemukan kebenaran di kawanan kupu-kupu yang cantik indah dan terlihat sempurna.

ternyata aku malah mendapatinya dalam keluarga serigala yang terlihat jahat tapi ternyata penuh kasih.



metallesa chintyara

REUNI AMA GANK SMP!!!

 lita , putri , fanny , and me

 me , putri , fanny , anita , n lita

 me , putri , fanny , lita , anita

 me , putri ,fanny ,lita , anita

 me,putri,fanny,lita anita

kayak di photobox!padahal ini tempat makan!heboh tetep heboh kyk jaman SMP!selalu bikin rusuh!hahaha...udah 10tahun ga sama2. dulu masi culun skrg tambah culun!ngiahahahaha....
i miss u galz!!! kurang 2 anak nih si Shinta dn Ellen!! moga tar kita bisa ketemu lagi n masing2 membuka aibnya hahahahahaha..... xoxoxoxoxo....


ps. lagu kita pas jadi sexydancer sekolah mewakili SMP3

"we sexy...we smart...we sexy in the school!!!" (terus sorak2 kayak kucing kelindes -___-" )

I BLAME COCO

I finally found a new idol
she was only 21 years old
but the sound and style is very inspiring

her name is Eliot Paulina Sumner, she is a daughter of Sting...
she hav a unique voice...  Awsome Eliot is Awesome!!!!;)))))

i blame coco - selfmachine 

i blame coco - quicker

i blame coco - caesar

hope u love it too....

savage garden

savage garden ....


band from Australia consisting of the 2 of Darren Hayes and Daniel Jones



i knew i loved you , truly madly deeply , break me shake me , to the moon and back is always in my mind until now!! ;)

 

when I was 9 years old ...
I fell in love with them ...what I felt when I heard their songs are calm and peaceful feeling 

hope u like their songs too , although they had dispersed ....

unwell ....

All day
Staring at the ceiling
Making friends with shadows on my wall
All night
Hearing voices telling me
That I should get some sleep
Because tomorrow might be good for something
Hold on
I'm feeling like I'm headed for a
Breakdown
I don't know why
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know, right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know, right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be
Me
Talking to myself in public
Dodging glances on the train
I know
I know they've all been talking 'bout me
I can hear them whisper
And it makes me think there must be something wrong
With me
Out of all the hours thinking
Somehow
I've lost my mind
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know, right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be
I been talking in my sleep
Pretty soon they'll come to get me
Yeah, they're taking me away
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know, right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy I'm just a little impaired
I know, right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be
Hey, how I used to be
How I used to be, yeah
Well I'm just a little unwell
How I used to be
How I used to be




just like what i felt ;'(

let it all happen

I've stopped crying I've stopped looking for the cause

I've started to understand

I can already say "this will be fine"

each of those questions I answered with a smile
I did not tell about why
but I told them "this happened because God loves us and God does not want us to hurt each other"

I suddenly did not want to know more about this issue
I just wanted to know "are you happy now?"

I want you to smile
I want you to get relief
I want you to feel peaceful
because I love you
and do not want you hurt by anythingI will miss all our memories
and I will miss you on my mind
because when I think about you
I saw our dreams
there is hope
there is happiness

photographs while shooting video clips TLB, with the first single "MAAFKAN"

thanks for Trinity Optima Production , Guava Production n all crew , Dimas Aditya and Joy Octaviano ...
fun fun n fun ;)  ....

a GIFT in THE SUNDAY MORNING

last night I cried and struggled with the problem I was having
then I need love
I need attention
I need support

but I feel nobody cares about my heart condition was


I am in control with the thought of rejection
I am in control of the thoughts of a lonely life

until I found myself forgetting HIM
HE who died on the cross because He love me
I forget HIM
a more caring and more love to me more than anyone
I feel rejected, but since I was born HE chose me
as their practices


I can't control my thoughts so I dissolve in grief


until finally I was crying non-stop and say "GOD HELP ME, HOW DO I HAVE TO, I NEED YOU!"and I slept until morning 
HE answered my call, in the morning

someone give this book as a Christmas gift
and I can't stop praising HIM
because HE knows what I need
beyond what I think

 

GOD ANSWERED MY PRAYERS
GOD IS MY SOURCE OF STRENGTH
GOD WANTS ME TO HAVE A MIND LIKE HIS MIND



thnx Ce RINA for the gift!!! i'm so blessed... 

;) 

HE care

all it can not be imposed
feelings must also be retained
I was too overwhelming
until I could not control my mind

I should have been more love YOU than another men
I should be patient to wait for what HE wants

Forgive me Lord

but eventually I realized that only YOU can soothe my heart


I believe there is hope behind all this

3 dec 2011

can't stop crying ....

ABHIMATA orphanage children

my son,
no one man
claiming to be your father

my son,
nine months
you in my womb

yet
I was not able to
nursing you

even
poverty and helplessness
I had to throw you away

my son
not mean i throw you away
circumstances that separated you from me

my son
with a piece of rag
I give you
to mothers
who loves you
surrogate mother

my son
you were born into the world without sin
but my sins are you responsible

my son
I know you're miserable
heart injury

I'm sorry, my son!

                                                                                          C.Nanik Purwoko

they look happy when we come
they were welcomed with great joy
they need our concern

imagine how it feels to be born and rejected
we are lucky is the source of blessing and love for them

if we could love them it's just like-we love our Lord


God Bless Us ... ;)

cool situation

My mobile phone does not ring anymore
there was no sign of an SMS
even as there is no life
and then I realized that I was not yours

I tried to remember what makes all this happen
I close my eyes and try to hold back tears
all of a sudden my heart pounding
but my body limp

I tried to remember who I am today
and I realized that I was not yours

I could barely feel the warmth of you again
I feel we are getting away
the day we are much
your world even as I pull you away from me
and I realized that I was not yours

I sat in the backseat and tried to remember all
I saw the rain that soaked the city
and it is increasingly making me want to cry
and I realize you're not mine

then I get out of the car
look around
and I can't feel your arrival

This is too cool

knowing all your change is sadness for me
I expect you to come here and convince me that we still get along
but who knows when