savage garden

savage garden ....


band from Australia consisting of the 2 of Darren Hayes and Daniel Jones



i knew i loved you , truly madly deeply , break me shake me , to the moon and back is always in my mind until now!! ;)

 

when I was 9 years old ...
I fell in love with them ...what I felt when I heard their songs are calm and peaceful feeling 

hope u like their songs too , although they had dispersed ....

unwell ....

All day
Staring at the ceiling
Making friends with shadows on my wall
All night
Hearing voices telling me
That I should get some sleep
Because tomorrow might be good for something
Hold on
I'm feeling like I'm headed for a
Breakdown
I don't know why
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know, right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know, right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be
Me
Talking to myself in public
Dodging glances on the train
I know
I know they've all been talking 'bout me
I can hear them whisper
And it makes me think there must be something wrong
With me
Out of all the hours thinking
Somehow
I've lost my mind
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know, right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be
I been talking in my sleep
Pretty soon they'll come to get me
Yeah, they're taking me away
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know, right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy I'm just a little impaired
I know, right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be
Hey, how I used to be
How I used to be, yeah
Well I'm just a little unwell
How I used to be
How I used to be




just like what i felt ;'(

let it all happen

I've stopped crying I've stopped looking for the cause

I've started to understand

I can already say "this will be fine"

each of those questions I answered with a smile
I did not tell about why
but I told them "this happened because God loves us and God does not want us to hurt each other"

I suddenly did not want to know more about this issue
I just wanted to know "are you happy now?"

I want you to smile
I want you to get relief
I want you to feel peaceful
because I love you
and do not want you hurt by anythingI will miss all our memories
and I will miss you on my mind
because when I think about you
I saw our dreams
there is hope
there is happiness

photographs while shooting video clips TLB, with the first single "MAAFKAN"

thanks for Trinity Optima Production , Guava Production n all crew , Dimas Aditya and Joy Octaviano ...
fun fun n fun ;)  ....

a GIFT in THE SUNDAY MORNING

last night I cried and struggled with the problem I was having
then I need love
I need attention
I need support

but I feel nobody cares about my heart condition was


I am in control with the thought of rejection
I am in control of the thoughts of a lonely life

until I found myself forgetting HIM
HE who died on the cross because He love me
I forget HIM
a more caring and more love to me more than anyone
I feel rejected, but since I was born HE chose me
as their practices


I can't control my thoughts so I dissolve in grief


until finally I was crying non-stop and say "GOD HELP ME, HOW DO I HAVE TO, I NEED YOU!"and I slept until morning 
HE answered my call, in the morning

someone give this book as a Christmas gift
and I can't stop praising HIM
because HE knows what I need
beyond what I think

 

GOD ANSWERED MY PRAYERS
GOD IS MY SOURCE OF STRENGTH
GOD WANTS ME TO HAVE A MIND LIKE HIS MIND



thnx Ce RINA for the gift!!! i'm so blessed... 

;) 

HE care

all it can not be imposed
feelings must also be retained
I was too overwhelming
until I could not control my mind

I should have been more love YOU than another men
I should be patient to wait for what HE wants

Forgive me Lord

but eventually I realized that only YOU can soothe my heart


I believe there is hope behind all this

3 dec 2011

can't stop crying ....